Behind....

I think I'm behind in everything right now.  Wait, that's not completely true...I did pay all of the bills on time.  But, I think I have overestimated my abilities to have a newborn, 3 other children, and get anything done.  Of course I'm cutting myself a little slack...our newborn did end up in the hospital with RSV.  How long do you think I can use that excuse?  I'm hoping it lasts until his first birthday.

So, here's a list of what I'm behind on. I publish this list so that you will feel better about yourself....

1.  The laundry...oh wait, I'm not behind in that because Aaron is amazing and took that over.

2.  Kids clothes...Peter and Natalie are regularly spotted in pants that are too short because I can't manage to get the next size bins out of the garage. Good thing Spring is coming, we'll just pretend they are wearing capri pants.

3.  My clothes... Just last night I sorted all of the maternity clothes out of my closet...it only took 6 weeks.

4.  The office...I have nothing to say except that I'm pretty sure it was ransacked by burglars.

5.  Deadlines...I have reverted to writing things on my hand to remember them.  Since Benjamin has been born I have missed appointments, kid snack days at preschool, phone calls that need to be returned, and the list goes on.  In fact, while writing this, I just remembered an important email that I promised to send yesterday.  Oh crap.

6.  Work...I work very part time.  Let's just say that I enormously overestimated my abilities to keep working even just a little.  Every time I sit down to do something, a certain little adorable baby needs to be fed, or changed, or fed and then changed...the cycle never seems to end.  Thank goodness for the amazing people that I work with who have saved me!

7.  Showers...ewwww...gross...believe me, I know.  I am an every-day-shower kinda girl.  Right now, I'm lucky if I get one every other day. Yeah for the pony tail.

8. Sleep...I'm hopelessly behind in sleep.  That's because I stay up late, writing pointless blog posts. :-)

9.  Cooking...thank goodness for friends and family.  They have set a record, because we received about 15 meals since Benjamin was born.  My kids thank you...they were getting really sick of chicken nuggets and peanut butter sandwiches.  But seriously, isn't that an amazing blessing?  It almost makes me want to get pregnant again... (that comment was purely for my hubby).

So, there, don't you feel better about yourself? 

I hope to return to my regular, productive self someday.  But for now, while the house is falling down around me, I am soaking up every moment with my newborn.  Because I know that in the blink of an eye he'll be a baby...not a newborn.  So we cuddle on the couch, I hold him while he naps (sometimes), and I consider it a gift when he gives me a happy smile.  I smell his sweetness, and kiss his fuzzy little head, and stare into his eyes while I'm still his whole world.  Everyday I think, " I can't believe I get to do this again." 

Yep, I'm behind...but I'm feeling pretty okay about it!